11.11.11

 
It only happens every 100 years, so what did you do on 11.11.11?

It was a very unfortunate day, as I learned that my student committed suicide by jumping off a building. According to the reports, it was because her partner was breaking up with her, and she couldn't take it. She's a single mom, but always delivered beyond expectations in school. She was one of the students who made an impression in me. 

So to make myself feel better, I figured the only way to forget about it (I was really upset) was to 1 - splurge on hotel buffet; or 2 - train hard. Because I have already gained unnecessary weight while recovering from my surgery (and still have to shake off A LOT of fat), I decided to divert my energy to a good training.

One of the worst things that could happen when you're in the mood to let everything out on the mat is to NOT have a partner. I got to the gym before training started, and as everyone partnered up, I got left with no one. There were odd number of people on the mat, and I got no partner! So I was sulking in the corner for the first 3 rounds, until someone noticed that I wasn't doing anything and called me. Thank you, guy! 

It went on well from there, and actually enjoyed the training. Sweat puddles were a bit too much, but I'm glad I trained on 11.11.11.

Anyway, have you experienced not getting a partner when you're the only woman training at that time? Does it make you feel alone/outcast? On normal days, I don't really mind, and if there is an odd number of people on the mat, I find a couple my size and we take turns in drilling. But sometimes when you are upset and just need a little bit of extra love, it hits you big time. Am I being too girly, or is there anyone out there who feel the same thing? Talk to me! :)